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Total Meltdown but humanity is saved. (3) Friday 15th March

I thought I was only going to do one post a day but , hey there's no rules are there.
I'll do the fuck I want.

I tried to make myself busy after the documentary and wrote the earlier post, got dressed , walked to the Docs to pick up my prescription and sick note.

Got home, tried to the cryptic crossword, failed. completed the sudoko though.
my wife called, I told her I was feeling down and apologised. She was great as per usual.

I had been listening to a radio 4 drama to get away from any news I guess.

Should have chosen music. The play was about some pilot who hijacked his own plane.

It got to a point where they scrambled military jets and I completely lost it. Ran out the kitchen , managed to turn the speaker off and bawled like a child in the back bedroom.  Took quite a few minutes to calm down.

 Took me by complete surprise. Looked at myself in the bathroom mirror. Red eyed, unshaven. not pretty. Triggers !
Saw that the message on the house phone was flashing. It was a DC working on the FME abuse case. They wondered if I or my wife (who was a cop too for 12months)  could remember the surname of an officer we joined with. I called them back and got an answer machine or rather voicemail. gave them the answer.

I recall he said I was great in one of the role plays we did in training.
I was the chair person , 8 students. Earth is doomed. Not enough places on the starship to Mars for all the survivors. choose who goes, who stays. Discuss.
It came down to an 86yr old retired waitress and a male Judge. What use is an 86 yr woman when a new world needs colonising.

Unanimous decision required. all agreed bar one. Time limit coming to end.
Big arguments. She wouldn't budge. Reversed decision with seconds left and took off on time. Everyone is saved bar the judge!
No pun intended.
Had a word with her after. Said she used to be a waitress ! What the fuck ! 

We all pass and are taken on as cops after 2-3 minute acceptance interviews. . She scrapes through after a 30 minute interview.
Years later that cop is required to resign !

I was great....I was. I'm not so now.

I saved humanity once. Now I just need to save myself. Ha..



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