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Monday 18th March. There is no script.

So i'm sat here with my wife who is watching "Baptiste" a cop programme. She has had the day off and has tomorrow off too.
I had a scan to go to this morning so I convinced my wife to go out shopping without me. She went to York with her mum.
I had the scan then headed to a friends house for a chat and a drink. I veered away though and found myself just heading towards the Jcn 32 shopping centre.
I thought I needed some beach footwear. I ended up buying three shirts. I also ended up sat alone with a cup of tea and food and feeling horribly alone. My mood plummeted as I saw how my life might be if my wife wasn't there for any reason.

 She had text and called me numerous times to ask how I was and I gave the usual answer of being okay. Which is true to some extent of course.

The tv programme is coming to a conclusion and Baptiste has the top crook on the ropes. He's broken every rule in the book to get there.
If I was a tv programme I'd simply write that I had a few weeks off to "find myself" and then be back at it , fighting crime for the common man.

This isn't a TV show though , so I'll write my own script.

My wife lifted my spirits at home with great food then we shared a glass of prosecco and nibbles.

Tomorrow we are trying a new café opened by a retired cop in Tadcaster. Breakfast or lunch. not sure.
Set no limits, no timescales. take it easy at our own pace. Hopefully like my recovery.

My scan was clear. All is well. Physically i'm fine.

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